*Nervous Laughter*

Okay, nervous laughter, firstly because I'm basically letting this blog fall apart. 

Oops, my bad. 

I had this plan to do like a weekly posting every Friday, and it's just sort of degenerated. I feel bad - like I'm the kind of person who only writes on their blog to apologise for not writing more on their blog.... which is what I'm doing now.

Secondly, because I spent time with X, and I do that A LOT when he's around. This friendship thing is definitely getting more embroiled. Crushing on him and at the same time and becoming his best friend is probably not smart, possibly emotionally destructive and risky as all hell. 

Does that mean I'm going to stop myself? Definitely not. 

We spent Thursday and Friday together - Thursday because he needed help with a project, Friday probably because he needed to get away from his psycho mother and needed company. And, as things seem to be going, we're going to be spending even more time together. 

Anyway, more nervous laughter because when people ask me what I'm going to do after I finish school, that's what I do. So far, it's a toss-up between a really Mathsy degree, an English Literature degree (Which makes more sense, even though I'm probably better at Maths than English, I like Reading and Writing A LOT) 

And, the third option is a gap year, possibly in America or Australia, which would be nice. I feel like I really need to get out the country - far, FAR away.

OB:
Spelling/Grammar. Kind of bittersweet to remember I had to choose between Maths and English back then. Two engineering degrees later, I feel like I can do both, though.

Oh my...

So, yay, I've got three followers, plenty of readers (for my stories) and a little bit too much advice.... 

Don't take offense if you have given me advice. It's just... that's not why I wrote this blog. Plus, I get enough advice from people I know personally, so... 

As a rough rule of thumb, Compliments about the story (stories now, actually. Yay - I've got my second one out) are fantastic, commiseration is great, encouragement is good..... advice is a No-no. 

That being said, NO progress has been made with X. I'm kind of an uber-nerd though (On the inside), and our science exam is coming up. Maybe I'll lure him to my house, with promises of knowledge.... Plus, he's kind of close to failing, so it's not like he'll say no. 

But, I doubt much'll come of it.... Unless I get him drunk.... but that'd be counter-productive for him, and I'm not really sure he drinks. But, anyway, dammit. My biggest problem is not just being able to ask him to just "hang out". I don't know why I can't - maybe it's my inherent character flaw or something. But I always need a "reason" for the two of us to see each other. 

Okay, it's not entirely my fault - he contributes to it too. And this "reason" is me totally shooting myself in the foot - I never know if he's there for the "reason" (Even if it's a semi-lousy one) or if he's there for me. I'm going to need to genuinely just ask him to hang out sometime.... If I can finally force myself to do it. 

Okay, that may be PARTIALLY taking someone's advice, which kind of steps on my earlier point.... but anyway. No advice. Grrrr.

OB:

Spelling/Grammar. Also, good god, Young Bradley, you needed all the advice you could get.